Years Ago

(him)

You used to want to come hear

you used to want to hold me

I think I called you dear

It was perfect you and me

You got inside my mind

The future was looking bright

You said that I was kind

I held on to you tight

(her)

Of course I remember then

It was a perfect night

But do you remember when

I'm certain that you might

I told you to be ready

I had to do some thinking

I couldn't keep you steady

I had to do some thinking

(together)

I'll never see you again

I guess you're just a memory

But are memories even real?

Did you really happen?

Do you still exist?

Do you remember when?

God I hope you do

But what's it even mean?

(her)

I just want you to know

It really wasn't you

I had to let you go

Didn't know what I could do

I thought that you would see this

I hoped that you would be there

I guess it was a miss

I guess you no longer care

(him)

I hope you understand

I could never take you back

But I'd love to hold your hand

I'd love for you to hold back

Thoughts of losing you again

Cause a pain I couldn't deal

To hold me once again

My heart you will have to steal

Hope You Are

I never took your love for granted
but you never told me why we're done
I know you didn't want to hold me back
but I'm still waiting for you here

I never meant to make things awkward
never wanted you to see me sad
but to see you smiling every day
was so much more than I could stand

And I hope that you're happy
and I hope that you are glad
And I hope that you're still smiling
And I hope you're not mad

If I'm not the one to be with you
Then I hope you're with the one who is
but it doesn't mater what I think
I still wish that you were mine

I still see you in all my dreams
I still think about you all the time
I moved so I would stop seeing you
But I see you in every thing

And I hope that you're happy
and I hope that you are glad
And I hope that you're still smiling
And I hope you're not mad

And I hope that you're still smiling
And I hope that you're still smiling
And I hope that you're still smiling
And I hope that you're still smiling

Hey Ma

Oh Mama you know I love you so
But I must be leaving here
To where I do not know
It could be anywhere

I'm sick of all the bullshit
I'm sick of my damn life
You have nothing to do with it
and I'm leaving with my knife

I may head out to the Ozarks
I may head up to the Moon
If I don't hear the angels harks
then Lord I left to soon

Didn't mean to cause you pain now
but nowhere was I home
I knew I had to get out somehow
In the heavens I know roam

At night when you look up to the stars
just know your sons alright
I'm sober cause there are no bars
I've finally seen the light

So I

So I needed a friend
and you were not the one
So I need this to end
so I can move along

And I'm starting to fear
The fact that I'm alone
And no one seems to hear
My love has been unknown

Chorus:
alone when you're here
alone when you're gone
take away my life
if you can find one to take

Sometimes I try

Sometimes I cry

they're still in my head

All the things that you had said

You can forget me too
like everyone I've known
could you live like I do
and learn why I'm alone

I'd love for me to find
the one that makes me whole
I'm losing my damn mind
I no longer feel my soul

repeat chorus

I'd give my life to you
if you would only see
Don't know what else to do
But I can't let you be

Thoughts You'll Never Hear

I wanna send you a message
but I'm not sure what you'd think
I want to say I'm happy for you
There's goodness in your life

I'm sorry it wasn't with me
you know how hard I tried
you are an amazing one
I'm glad you found your dream

I can forget the pain we shared
to know that you now smile
If losing you meant saving you
then I'm glad that we had met

I hope that you don't see my words
as something that they're not
to you I've only spoken truth
you're worth more than a lie

I don't want you to look at me
as someone that you broke
you'll never have to hear my thoughts
you're happier this way

Hold My Breath

On the day that you were made
My future came to be
Floating through an endless time 
Until I saw your face
Little did I know it then
But you would save my life

Oh I'm holding
My breath for us
You're not living
What's in the stars

Little did we know then
What god had planned

Don't forget our happy days
I know I never will
Every time I see your smile
My heart begins to break
I can see it in your eyes
You feel the heartache too

Oh I'm holding
My breath for us
You're not living
What's in the stars

There's a future to be had
But we're too much the same
Neither wants to turn back time
Even if it's meant to be
The universe will find a way
It's all I can believe

Little did we know then
What god had planned

Off That Ledge

Each time I learn the rules to live
They seem to change the game again
It's not enough for me to play the way I was

Remember that it's a journey
and sometimes you're gonna free fall
Sometimes you gotta throw yourself right off that ledge

I'm not afraid
I'm just learning
I'll live my life
When I learn to take control

I'll take control
I know I can
I will learn it
When I'm not afraid to live

I don't need your agitation
I wont let you put me under
I've done my best to get me where I am right now

You cannot plan a life like this
It takes strength I don't know I have 
Sometimes it takes all you got to get through a day

I'm not afraid
I'm just learning
I'll live my life
When I learn to take control

I'll take control
I know I can
I will learn it
When I'm not afraid to live

I don't give up because I know I can't
I'll put this fight up til the day I die
I know I'll have to deal with all the pain
I know I will not let it take me down

It's time to divide & conquer
I must take it all back over
I cannot let things stand in my way anymore

Remember that it's a journey
It takes strength I don't know I have 
It's not enough for me to play the way I was